Sometimes you feel like everything you start just flows off your needle and you didn’t actually realise how fast you work and then you are done.
Or you are like me and have a problem with finishing things in general. And then there are times when nothing works out and you feel like you cannot even start anything, or not pick up what you started already.
Do you know this feeling? Very often I have to decide if I want to go on and crochet something (or knit something but mostly I crochet because for me it is more fun) or read. And at the moment the books win more often than not. And I have to tell you, I read a lot (my average is about 4 books per week). And I mean A LOT! But because this blog isn’t about all the romance novels I am reading in my spare time (if you want to, I can talk books for days…) but about all the things I do with a hook I can tell you: there‘s not happening a lot. Rather just a little bit happening here. Maybe even less.
But why? Why are we so unproductive sometimes and hyper productive other times (I cannot tell you the last time it happened… must have been years ago, ask Sarah, I think she is more productive than Katharina and me combined (Katharina, do you agree?))?
I don’t think it is the time with my family that keeps me away from the hook. I think it is just me. My unwillingness to do something productive. I read because then I don’t have to think about the things that happened at work/with the kids/with Covid-19/… I can just be in the story and not care. And as I said, I read a lot. I also read fast but that isn’t an excuse that I can read a book per day if I want to. I take the time to do it as well. And I could spend this time doing other things.
So still: why don‘t just crochet and maybe watch some TV? Good question, can you tell me? I think, I just don’t want to watch TV at the moment, I rather read. It keeps me occupied on a whole different level. When I read, I am just in the story, I am not doing five other things at the same time (for example crocheting, knitting, playing stupid games on my phone…). Does this happen to you, too? Do you have the feeling you have to do multiple things at the same time as you watch TV? I do it with audiobooks as well (otherwise I might fall asleep) but I don’t feel as bad then.
In German we have something that is called „innerer Schweinehund“ where the literal translation would be the internal pigdog. I don’t think it makes any sense in English though. But the meaning behind it is the you yourself have something inside you that is holding you back and that you need to overcome to reach your goals. Mostly we talk about the Schweinehund when it comes to work outs (that we don’t do, because we got too lazy). So maybe I have a little pigdog sitting on my shoulder telling me to rather read a book an not get my hook/needles out and actually do something. Because it is so much easier and I don’t have to think about it.
Do you know the feeling? And is there a little pigdog sitting on your shoulder, as well?
I know that tonight I have a book waiting. But as it also comes in audiobook form, maybe, just maybe I will pick up my hook again.
Take care, Christina